I am beyond grateful...

I have been so overwhelmed with words of love and support since my last post.  "Thank you" just doesn't seem to suffice.  Whether you messaged me to say "I'm praying for you", or pulled me aside in the parking lot to say "you're not alone", I am so grateful.  I even had some friends say to me "I feel the exact same way, and have often struggled over the same thoughts."  Therefor, I'd like to share with you the wise words that one of my sweetest friends sent me.  I have known this inspirational woman for years and she is truly a mouthpiece for our Lord, and she reminded me:

" ...If someone has diabetes and takes insulin, we don't question their faith...if my thyroid is underactive and I take synthroid, we don't question my faith...so if you are on a medication that your body needs, it's not a question of faith.  Walking with God is a daily trek, but the meds are not indicating that you aren't depending on Him~ you are trusting Him to use the meds that your body needs right now to help settle your emotions...I will be praying for you~ not to feel defeated, but to feel confident that He is holding you and that you will discern His guidance regarding dosages and timing with using the meds or coming off...".  

I feel so blessed that God has surrounded me with such powerful, inspirational women! Thank you for all the support, kind words, and prayers! We're all in this journey together!

Help a Sista Out!

My poor camera bit the dust last week and I am going CRAZY without it! My cell just doesn't take the same quality pics, and I'm just itching to get a replacement! Problem is, we weren't planning on getting a new camera until I could afford this baby:

Since an $800 camera isn't really in the budget right now, I need to find one about 1/4 of the price to hold me over.  Any suggestions? The last camera we had was a wedding gift and was a Sony Cybershot.  I liked it a lot and am dreading having to get used to how another one "feels".  As of now we're leaning towards a Nikon Coolpix (and it just so happens to be on sale at Best Buy this week!).  Thanks for your help!

What's a girl to do?

I am frustrated. I have been this way for the past month or so, but haven't yet put it to words. To be honest, I don't know if venting will even help, but I guess it's worth a shot because all I do is dwell on the subject. There was a disagreement with two family members that completely blew up. Who knew something so simple could turn into such a dispute! We haven't heard from said persons in a month. It hurts me that they did not send Madelyn a card, nor did they call on her Birthday. How can these individuals who are supposed to be close to my baby be so distant? How could they let their feelings for us get in the way of how they treat our daughter? I realize that I should focus on all the wonderful people who adore our children, but I can't help wonder why things are the way they are. I need advice. I need council. I need someone to help me understand why. Any takers?

I have prayed many hours for insight but, for the life of me, I still don't know what to do. I guess there is nothing "to do" when the ball's not in your court, right? I've never been good at arguments. I usually always cave so that the fight can go ahead and be over. I don't like things being unsettled and that's exactly what they are right now. I can't make this better because it's not something I can control. I don't know how to move forward when I hold so much anger. Telling them how I feel gets me nowhere, because if I don't agree with them, then they get mad and don't talk to us for months. William asks about these individuals all the time and I don't know what to say. How do I defend someone who clearly needs to "step it up"?

Has anyone ever been in a similar situation? If so, what did you do? How do you move on when there is no communication? How do you begin to communicate when everything has been said?


Please. Thank you. Goodnight :)


Erin