I am frustrated. I have been this way for the past month or so, but haven't yet put it to words. To be honest, I don't know if venting will even help, but I guess it's worth a shot because all I do is dwell on the subject. There was a disagreement with two family members that completely blew up. Who knew something so simple could turn into such a dispute! We haven't heard from said persons in a month. It hurts me that they did not send Madelyn a card, nor did they call on her Birthday. How can these individuals who are supposed to be close to my baby be so distant? How could they let their feelings for us get in the way of how they treat our daughter? I realize that I should focus on all the wonderful people who adore our children, but I can't help wonder why things are the way they are. I need advice. I need council. I need someone to help me understand why. Any takers?
I have prayed many hours for insight but, for the life of me, I still don't know what to do. I guess there is nothing "to do" when the ball's not in your court, right? I've never been good at arguments. I usually always cave so that the fight can go ahead and be over. I don't like things being unsettled and that's exactly what they are right now. I can't make this better because it's not something I can control. I don't know how to move forward when I hold so much anger. Telling them how I feel gets me nowhere, because if I don't agree with them, then they get mad and don't talk to us for months. William asks about these individuals all the time and I don't know what to say. How do I defend someone who clearly needs to "step it up"?
Has anyone ever been in a similar situation? If so, what did you do? How do you move on when there is no communication? How do you begin to communicate when everything has been said?
Please. Thank you. Goodnight :)